Just..

I don't know what to do anymore..
I love you, I do. But there are so many things that are just killing me..
One. We're 49234597452093485725823452 bazillion miles apart.
Two. We barely TALK.
Three. We're basically a secret.
It just hurts..
Loving someone, and not being able to hug them, or hold them.
Holding the phone close to you when you sleep because it sometimes makes them feel like they're there. Someway, somehow, they're there. And for a little while, you're content. You're okay. Until I see your face again..
And it all just makes me feel useless.
What can I do for you?
I'm so freaking far away.
This isn't a way to have a relationship.. It really isn't. But I KNOW if I let go and wait until I'm THERE, I'll only feel worse..
I can't let go. And I'm holding on with all I have. Just to keep you mine.
Even though I feel like I don't deserve you.
And everyday, I wonder why you want me. What you even see in me.
It's more like a mystery, and I can't solve it because I don't have enough clues.

I feel like I've failed you..
And I'm sorry for that.
I love you.. :I
Please, don't forget that.

-xBremi.