Just..

I don't know what to do anymore..
I love you, I do. But there are so many things that are just killing me..
One. We're 49234597452093485725823452 bazillion miles apart.
Two. We barely TALK.
Three. We're basically a secret.
It just hurts..
Loving someone, and not being able to hug them, or hold them.
Holding the phone close to you when you sleep because it sometimes makes them feel like they're there. Someway, somehow, they're there. And for a little while, you're content. You're okay. Until I see your face again..
And it all just makes me feel useless.
What can I do for you?
I'm so freaking far away.
This isn't a way to have a relationship.. It really isn't. But I KNOW if I let go and wait until I'm THERE, I'll only feel worse..
I can't let go. And I'm holding on with all I have. Just to keep you mine.
Even though I feel like I don't deserve you.
And everyday, I wonder why you want me. What you even see in me.
It's more like a mystery, and I can't solve it because I don't have enough clues.

I feel like I've failed you..
And I'm sorry for that.
I love you.. :I
Please, don't forget that.

-xBremi.

Love.

Everyone wants to be in love..
I've noticed this.
But, why?
I mean, I'm not saying I'm not in love, because I am. But love isn't always just hugs and kisses.
Love hurts.
Real love does, anyways.
And love doesn't develop after the first week you've been dating. That's called a strong crush that just might fade in a  month, more or less.
Love is.. Love isn't really easy to explain.
"Love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel it."
That quote is most definatly true. If you don't feel the love, it most likely isn't there.
So do me a favor, and don't claim that you're in love. Don't rush into it either. Take your time, and be happy.

Felt the need to rant a little.. Sorry.
-xBremi.

Motivation.

So, today in school we had a motivational speaker come in.
It was nice. I liked it.
He said I had a beautiful smile. (Which I don't agree with, at all. :P)
He was very "in your face" kind of guy, but really nice.
And he got his point across. Well, at least to me he did.
Everyone heard him, but not everyone  listened.

I hate how people can be so judge mental and rude.
Not everyone you meet, you like, but you need to learn to deal with them nicely.
Judging people on what/who they like, their sexual orentiation, race, and anything else, is wrong. And I don't like people like that.
If you have a problem with me, okay. Good for you. Keep it to yourself.
If you want to talk about me, at least have the decency to say it to my face.
Just saying.
Oh, and I do date a girl. Hannah.
Have a problem? Stop reading.
That's all for now.
Peace.
-xBremi.